a post script

i posted this a few months back a bloggers tale about this grindree with a not-so-high regard of bloggers.

i recently got a text from cutie

hi. curious about something... i was going through my entire ipod playlist when i chanced upon a podcast i downloaded some years back, featuring Migs the manila gay guy and several other people. i just listened to it again after all these years and am wondering.. Are you the same CC who's in the show? if so, kudos to all of you! if not, just ignore this!

of course i told him that i was THAT cc

well, congratulations on your well put-out shows.

that made me smile and made me proud. and to think he made me seriously reconsider my blogging!

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cebu over the weekend

and for cebu raiders, fabcasters are swinging by cebu this weekend.

details are here

so if you feel like saying hello, please do! don't worry. we don't bite. not unless you want us to. LOL


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SAHC: kilabot ng mga bading

back in my time, the term 'kilabot ng mga kolehiyala' was part of the vernacular. it referred to the super-hot guy who could make the college girls swoon and drop their panties without resistance. hence, this guy must be 'feared'.

in our batch, there were quite a number of cuties and hotties, but i have to admit that chris was probably the kilabot. he was a varsity football player. broad shouldered, tapered waist and hips. strong legs. strong jaw and chin. chinito. and since he wore glasses, he was our version of clark kent/superman.

when he first started being 'cute' with me, (pa-cute kung baga), my first impulse was to be aloof. he was too gorgeous to be taken seriously, i thought. but soon, he became serious. we'd talk over the phone. meet after class. he'd walk me to my ride. the things that make a girl's (and a gel's) knees weak.

we even went out on dates. an ice cream date then was such a big deal.

and i knew i was the envy of badingdom. i would share the juicy details to nathan, to nandy and gerry, more for bragging rights than anything else.

and when i finally answered him, i was really feeling like a girl. he'd really treat me specially. there were times he'd visit me in the house. i remember a saturday afternoon in his house, listening to music. making out. (but not having sex)

i can't recall now why we broke up. but we did. and i didnt really feel so bad about it. i was so sure of myself then.

chris became close to beth next. and soon they were an item. and beth fell for him so bad that until now, yes until now, i believe he carries a torch for him! when that relationship went south, chris became chummy with nathan. and they also became a couple. and nathan fell hard for him, too. though i think nathan got over him after college.

i look back at him and think to myself that he was quite a catch then. and i wear it like a badge that i was the first he pursued.

some friends say that he is a shadow of what he was then. no matter. it's the memory of chris that i'd like to keep fresh.


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man-crush: the meet-up

i had a brief window after my class and before a date. his invite for coffee was quickly arranged. weird thoughts were running through my head. what if he turns out to be another mr ripley? what if he stands me up? but these were balanced by reassuring thoughts of our conversations.

i raced up to the second floor of the starbucks outlet to see him, pouring over his books.

he is real. he is as he declared himself to be. he is as beautiful as i have seen in his pics. i went up to him, introduced myself and offered my hand for a handshake.

i didnt want to disturb him much, knowing he was actually studying. but he gamely entertained me, even as he ate his late lunch.

we kept it at a certain level. geek level. as i asked him stuff about the iPad, apps, etc., him being a certified geek & gadget guy. it was a safe topic. i was trying to gauge any attraction, now that he has seen me, too. i wasn't sensing much though. we stayed at that topic until the time i had to leave.

it was all very... professional, courteous and polite. and it left me all the more confused.

i texted him after, inviting him for dinner. he agreed "when our schedules meet."

nevertheless, i still liked him. i liked him more. i still want to pursue this. all the more.


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the Vatican and the Homosexual

a dear reader shared his research on the 'official Vatican stand' on Homosexuality. Thank you so much for the effort!

"Homosexuality refers to relations between men or between women who experience an exclusive or predominant sexual attraction towards persons of the same sex. It has taken a great variety of forms through the centuries and in different cultures. Its psychological genesis remains largely unexplained. Basing itself on Sacred Scripture, which presents homosexual acts as acts of grave depravity, tradition has always declared that "homosexual acts are intrinsically disordered." They are contrary to the natural law. They close the sexual act to the gift of life. They do not proceed from the genuine effective and sexual complementarity. Under no circumstances can they be approved."

Take note, the Catholic Church do not discriminate homosexuals. What the Catholic Church tells us is that because of natural law, any homosexual act is not consented, nor in any manner will they be approved.

Natural law is about what your inner being is telling you. Normally, if you are not feeling okay with a particular thing, something in you tells you so, unless you already hardened your inner being from these dictates.

"The number of men and women who have deep-seated homosexual tendencies is not negligible. This inclination, which is objectively disoriented, constitutes for most of them a trial. They must be accepted with respect, compassion, and sensitivity. Every sign of unjust discrimination in their regard should be avoided. These persons are called to fulfill God's will in their lives and if they are Christians, to unite to the sacrifice of the Lord's Cross the difficulties they may encounter from their condition.

Homosexual persons are called to chastity. By the virtues of self-mastery that teach them inner freedom, at times by the support of disinterested friendship, by prayer and sacramental grace, they can and should gradually and resolutely approach Christian perfection."

CHASTITY, DUDE! SELF-MASTERY, PRE!

nuff said.

when we were all still single Parts II & III

ang pagpapatuloy....

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Music credits:

Singles, Part 2

* Material Girl by Madonna
* Intro by The XX

Singles Part 3

* Learn To Be Lonely (live at the Oscars) by Beyonce
* Learn To Be Lonely (“The Phantom Of The Opera” Original Soundtrack) by Minnie Driver